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>>> Belittled <<<

September 29th, 2007

First of all, thanks to all for the most count of comments at the previous post. That was a hit, and the biggest number of comments I’ve ever had for this blog. Never expected that the news could stir up quite a crowd. Lol!

And for those who cares, I am really at my best at this point of time. Thanks to all those supports that I’ve got, I am now over it. Took it as a lesson and a turning point for a bigger perspective. Things did turn out ugly, but I just cannot do anything more. Well, why should I cry over spilled milk, right?

Quote from Gomok: Sometime, change is everything…

But there’s only one thing that I can’t change, and I think will never change, because its the fire of me: I hate to be belittled, by anyone, for anything; belittling me only makes me lose respect towards him or her – and might as well provoke a provocative revengeful act from me.

Be it my parents, my siblings, or my friends, as well as my exes.. just don’t dare to belittle me, because I will prove it to you that I can and I take that as a challenge!

Maybe that’s my package – a big pride and big motivations to balance my small little figure.

Respects is something to be earned, and I don’t think that I should respect someone if he or she cannot respect me the way I do. Call me a self – centered arrogant, but that’s my vice that I live for. Why should I be feeling down for something when I can hold my heads high, true?

Blimey. Not that I cannot takes advises or something, but sometimes the lowlife is just worthless to be taken care of. Or heard of. Why should I hear the opinions of somebody who could use the opinions for himself/herself? Lol.

Enough with the blabbering. Some updates:

  • I got myself a couple of books and magazines worth RM68: “Life’s like that” by Lydia Teh, “Velocity” by Dean Koontz (yes I’m attracted to murder and life thingy! tongue), Home Finder magazine, as well as the latest Reader’s Digest. Really different things to get for Raya huh? tongue
  • A nice talk and meeting for sahur with Enol, Sean, En A, and Gajah. Even though its tiring (due to work’s hectic), I still find the times spent is priceless.
  • My plan for first home is bumping into roadblocks. Need to find a workaround. Again, never belittled me. If I want something really bad, I will sacrifice everything that I have to get it, no matter what.
  • Got to be ready for second take of DB2 730 exam!
  • Work’s hectic: really a lot of tickets to be settled, and some of it quite tough too. Its been quite a while since I’ve been digested in application development, so answering that tickets really needs a shining for a rusty skill.
  • And talking about rusty skill, I got my skill in PR (which was once a legend!) up and shining! big grin

Oh yeah, I’m planning to have a rack for my growing collection of books, novel, magazines, and comics (20+ novels, 100 to 200 comics, and uncountable magazines). Have anything in sight? Tell me about it!

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>>> Even a doctor sometimes get sick.. <<<

September 14th, 2007

This post maybe sounds so childish, but hey, that’s the fact that happened. Even a love doctor like me sometimes get sick of love itself.

And if I may proudly announces, that I am back to single status. Chunna, Mia, and people who thought that they can taste “nasi minyak” from me, sorry to let you down.

Don’t ask me why, even myself are not very sure what happened. It happened to be too fast, and too furious. Emotional versus emotional, anger versus anger, principal versus principal. In the end, the aftermath was quite bad. Okay I won’t share any details more than that.

I can only share some learning points from both sides:

1) Never hide your feelings. If you happened to be “memendam rasa”, better let it out in a well mannered situation. Don’t put it inside, don’t be a denial. And don’t go home and cry over the spilled milk.
2) Commitment mean sacrifice. If you cannot sacrifice some of your good time with friends whatsoever, never commit a commitment.
3) Everybody has their own bad side. Live with it.
4) Mistakes are something unavoidable. Learn from it.
5) Admittance and Acceptance. If you know that the jewel in front of you means a lot, then take the initiative to clean it up. Accept the value of the jewels; only clean it up, not trimmed it up, because it may break and shattered.
6) Give and Take, Friends and Lovers: definition.

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FAQ

1) Is there a war or you’ve broken up with peace?
I’m sorry to say, yes there’s been a war. But I got to let it go with a peace treaty, because continuing the war only brings more casualties and no win to anybody. Sorry to say, I am a fighter and will fight even a meaningless war.

2) Who is actually to be blame?
I’m gonna admit that I’m the one who throw the bomb to start the war. Nevertheless, the war is there waiting to explode, and yes, both of us have our own part to be blame.

3) So what you’re going to do now?
I’m going to live my life as usual. Life need to go on, and hanging by the past memories isn’t good for me. I’m open for anyone to date now, anyone?

4) Does it hurt even to the Doctor Love?
Yes it hurts. I’ve taken many injuries and damages and just being warded off from the ICU of the Love Hospital. I’m also a human maa..

5) Do you love her actually?
Yes I do love her. I’m regretting the fact that there’s nothing more that I could done to save our relationship. I’ve tried my best, but it seems that it is not good enough. Well, there’s a saying that to love is to let go… you know the rest..

6) If the time decides that she comes back to you, will you accept her back?
I hate to play with uncertainty, and the same with time. As said above, I do love her, and I accept her for what she are, and who she are. But if the times destined and forced me to wait for her, no, I’ve giving up on that. If she comes back to me later, I will decide with my availability, my commitment, and my conditions to be able to marry her at that point of time. If I can, I’m more than willing to accept her back. If somehow I’m not available (say, I got someone else), or cannot give commitment (say, I’m too busy with my career), or my conditions are just too bad (say, I don’t have the money to marry her), then, I’m sorry I cannot accept her back.

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That’s it people for this time.

To Miss Fazlina, I wish you good luck in your life. I am sorry for what I’ve done, intentionally or unintentionally. You know how much I love you, but it seems that we’ve taken wrong steps towards our relationships. I hope you don’t grief over the past time, and I hope you’ve learned your mistakes just as much as I did, and make it our own guidelines in our life to be more mature and be more wise. I also hope that both of us doesn’t have any revenges, or anymore anger left unsettled.

I wish you all the best things to happen to both of us. Thanks for the memories.

T_T

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>>> All Good Things (Come To An End) <<<

August 30th, 2007

Its true what people says, that all good things, must come to an end, somehow.. someway..

Last weekend, I had my convocation day, which mean for now, I’m officially graduated. Graduated with B. Tech (Hons) ICT. Looking at the scroll, makes me feel grief and sad because of all the memories back in UTP. 5 years of everything. 5 years of learning, 5 years of enjoyment, 5 years of sharing life with everyone I know back then.

Well, time goes on. So as life.

Going back to the weekend of convocation, well, kinda lot of stories actually to be shared. Let’s start on Friday. I come early to the office on Friday, for two reason: 1) I have a DB2 certification exam test 730 and 2) I wish I can go back early so that I can packing up and going back to UTP asap.

But then I forgot that I still doesn’t do my shopping for convocation! Omg. So my first plan isn’t working. I ended up going for shopping at 8, and going home for packing at 11. So, even though I go for work early in the morning, I ended up doing my late shift as well, and then go shopping some clothes.

Oh yeah, I failed the DB2 exam too. Damnit.

So, after packing all the stuff, eat, get some rest, I went to Shah Alam to pick up Seannie, who want to go back with me to UTP. And guess what, it was 1 am in the morning when I started my journey to Shah Alam. And guess what?? I’ve been summoned for speeding at Subang. Shyteeee…

Whatever it is, I did arrived at Seannie’s home, and we started our journey back to UTP. We did talked about many things. From work, to old memories, to our friends, to girls that we encountered. Good things that Sean did not sleep, because it was in the midst of night, and I could really use a company.

So, we did arrived at 5:30 in the morning, and I just got to sleep when arrived.

The next morning, I went to get all my robes and stuff, and went for the rehearsal. End of another day. But that night, I did have a great time spending time with my friends from 1 a.m till 5 p.m in the morning. Thanks to Munir, Mia, Yelloue, Enol, Uena, Eena, Mira, Chunk, Paklah, Jakas, Gomok, and Rumi. Great night huh talking and gossiping about stuff? Hey I did have a good laugh, after about 2 month of not being able to do that!


Sunday sees me going to Tapah to visit the “maam” at her house. Having a nice chat with her mom, till time passes by and I forget to go to Ipoh to buy a batik shirts to wear for the dinner that night!

Whatever, I still went for the dinner, but with formal attire with suspender. I did looked like the dancers of agogo in front at stage. hehe. Have some of photo session, chats with all the friends, catching up, and stuff. But the dinner was suck. I still crave for food after that.

Which is why I accept Munir’s offer when he asked me to join him at mamak. Another mamak session, but different people. At that time, I have Munir, Gomok, Mazrep, Mia, Chunna, and Paklah only. The important people is there: Munir, Gomok, Mazrep, and me. We did chat and discussing like hell about everything.

Sorry Mazrep, your Dr. Love also can’t give you the medicine that you need for your current sickness… *sigh*

And that session was ended with taking pictures in front of UTP, and me didn’t sleep well for two consecutive days. (Hampeh tol korang, sebab korang ler aku tertido2 masa menunggu skrol tau.. ciss!)

Then Monday, comes the day of graduation. As usual, taking the pictures, seeing my friends, having my families celebrating me becoming as graduates. I did feel like want to cry, when my mom hugged me and congratulate me. Thank you mom for supporting me all this while.

Tuesday, it’s time to go back. All good things happened already.

And it did come to an end.

I was involved in an accident on my way back. It was at Gopeng in the highway. It was steep, a downhill maybe, and it started to rain. I drived quite fast, I’m not denying that.

Suddenly the car in front of me brakes, some sort of emergency brakes. I did the same, but the rain makes my car’s sloppy, and it didn’t stop. I steer my car to the left, to avoid collision with the car in front. But I can’t make it safely to the left, and I crashed into the left side of the car (on the left lane).

Yes, I did have an accident. It looks like all good things do come to an end.

*sigh*

I’m just lucky I am alive. Seriously, the accident wreck my car quite bad. And now I don’t have a car to go to work! *sigh*

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