I hate to see my family members in grief.

I was browsing through Facebook when I stumbled upon my cousin’s new photo which in my opinion, was too skinny. I know that she’s still going through another phase of breakup, and I know I am not the best person to consult about this. After all, I was in the same shoes as her.

Or at least, we’re in the same status.. whatever.

But at the same time this song are played in my PC’s background and I thought its just right. So I dedicated this post to my cousin’s, Nana who’s now in Melbourne. Nana oi, jaga la your health btol-btol…

For other people, learn from the story (and song) below what might happened when you’re leaving somebody else without rational reason, or when you’re not being committed to what is supposed to be your commitment.

As I always preach, never committed something that you’re uncertain, because when you’re not, you’re toying with other’s “life”.

P/s: The post below will be like one posted earlier: Polaroid.

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Once, we felt that we have everything. We felt like in heaven. We felt that love give us all the security that we need. We felt whole. We felt owned. We felt grown.

But then life’s full of unexpected. The love is gone. We’re dumbstruck. We mourn. We feel numb.

This world will never be
What I expected
And if I don’t belong
Who would have guessed it..

We shouted at ourself, we blame ourself, we blame others. We feel bitter; we feel the life has nothing to offer.

We’re trapped, alone. We forget what we have, and what we still had.

I will not live alone
Everything that I own
To make you feel like it’s not too late.. it’s never too late..

Despite all the advices that we get, all the consolation that we had, we still feel bad. It’s too much of an emotion to get over with; it was our life, and the life has seep out from the soul..

Even if I say
It’ll be alright
Still I hear you say
You want to end your life

We do not realize how foolish we have been. We do not realize how idiotic we are. We give in to the denial, to the placebo; that by hurting ourselves, things will rewind by itself..

But it’s not. And it will never be. And is it worth it to give in to something we know will never worked out?

Now and again we try
To just stay alive
Maybe we’ll turn it all around
‘Cause it’s not too late, it’s never too late!!

I know it hurt, I know it suck. I thought I see a mirror when I see you. We’ve given them everything, we gave them our life, and it was all for them.

But is a fact. They ruined it.

No one will ever see
This side reflected
And if there’s something wrong
Who would have guessed it

We thought nobody’s going to understand us. We thought we are destroyed. We thought we are doomed.

But its far from it…

And I have left alone
Everything that I own
To make you feel like
It’s not too late, it’s never too late!!

We can’t get the life we once had. We can revived the dead; even though we hope that the love itself is an undead. We can’t rewind the time.

Even if we did, they might do the same thing over again..

The world we knew
Won’t come back
The time we’ve lost
Can’t get back
The life we had
Won’t be ours again….

But we need to realize, its time to move on. Let them be fucking proud of what they’re not. It was a bad history that we cannot rewritten..

Even if I say
It’ll be alright
Still I hear you say
You want to end your life
Now and again we try
To just stay alive
Maybe we’ll turn it all around
‘Cause it’s not too late.. it’s never too late!!

Back in our mind, we always knew that we’re the one who’s strong. We’re the one who’s right. We’re the one who’s not to be undermine.

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A deep song, a deep interpretation, a deep motivation..