I wish I can say that I am busy as this image…

But the truth is, I am not busy because I am playing games. Here’s the outline of what has happened since I disappear.

1) Work, Work, Work.

Yes, as per previous entry, I have dual position and triple role – and I have difficulty catching up. For real. Not to say that I’m incompetent in doing my work or not, but the things keep coming and slowly (but gradually) it takes away my life. I can no longer go back home and be calm and contented and forgot about the work.

Sometimes I even dream about work! *sigh*

I wouldn’t bring this up if I am happy with my work. The thing is, what I do and what I received as my salary feels not enough. Yes, I changed department and do more work. No, I didn’t get a pay raise. I am still stuck with whatever petty cash they give but with a lot more trouble.

I am currently thinking and looking for another good opportunity out there. Just looking for now, since my yearly salary review will be on July. If (and that is a big IF) I can’t get satisfaction in terms of monetary value by then – I guess that’s it. I am going to change my job.

2) Relationship.

My relationship is still okay despite our fair share of fights which I can blame my work for it. When I say that my work is gradually creeping and taking away my life, of course it will effect my relationship as well. I very much appreciate my significant others for putting up with all my nonsense and whatnot. Thank you dear..

But still, she’s a woman. Sometimes her mood swings will be put in effect too. And believe me when I say – woman’s PMS is hell. No matter how angelic the woman can be, the PMS will be very mean and patience-testing.

A rule of thumb that I can share: Don’t say anything. Whether you do right things, or wrong things, in PMS all will be wrong and all hell breaks loose. Let the hell cools by itself.

3) Social Life

Do I have one? I believe my close friends will say that I am anti-social by now. In fact, I can’t remember exactly when I went out with them last. Movie? Forget it. I haven’t watch Iron Man 2, Ip Man 2, Robin Hood, Nightmare on Elm Streets, and whatever box-office that have launched by now. Shit.

Too many things happened at one time and I feel overwhelmed. Seriously. Yeah, I still went to some of the weddings (not much, one or two at most). Yeah, I still visit some friends. I still visit some of my family members. But it’s getting rare.

No time, no money. How pathetic can my life be?

At least I don’t have major crisis in life for now. Some of my friends need to deal with sickness and disease and I pity them. I am grateful at most. But still, at time like this I wish I am back in university time; where I had my chances of happiness despite the dull boring life of UTP.

*sigh*

Oh we can’t reverse the time, eh?

4) Health

The toll of the works are starting to effect my health as well. Yes, now I am in the morning shift and my sleep pattern are changing a bit (although I am still late most of the time). As of now, I just have my small shares of flu and a little bit rise temperature. Blame it on the stress.

I hope the situation will changed soon. And before that time comes, I hope God give me strength to move through His obstacles.

Oh, talking about health, I *might* stop smoking in June if they enforced the pack of 20 only. For now, it is getting harder to get a pack of 14 (which is much cheaper and lesser). I hate the pack of 20 because it makes me smokes more, obviously – and not to say the difference in cost are making a hole in my pocket.

GOD, GIVE ME STRENGTH AND YOUR PATIENCE!

*sigh*. I’ll be back once most of the turbulences slow down. Until then, I am most probably be in hiatus and you won’t see much updates here. I will still write shits in MultipleEyes though. That has been like another job too.