>>> Dillema of a Graduate <<<

June 6th, 2007 by [re-arrange] 3 comments »

As the entry is posted, I’m unofficially graduated for a week. Oh yeahh baby! Never felt a real freedom like this would be so happy and joyous! So now, what’s next?

Of course, a job. Without money, nobody can survive aite? Forget about all the plans or vacations; I believe everybody got that sorted out already with the last pennies given by our so-called-generous scholarship (yeah no doubt, I do have plans to execute in this first month of unemployment). But I’m starting to think about my future as the money going depleted. How I’d hopefully hope that there’s a cheat code in money making; press Enter at my “keyboard-of life”, a text box appeared, and I key in “greedisgood”, pooff!! 1000000 of gold in my “inventory-of-life”! (Duh! If only life is a Warcraft games!)

Cut the crap. So I did go back to my home as early as my paper finished, just to try to get to an interview by Qubeconnect on the next day at Technology Park. I did went to the Technology Park, just to.. well.. kinda screw up on the technical thingy. I know about it, just that I miss a step, and then, the ordinary answer: “I’ll call you back for the next interview”. We know what that means, eh?

So yes, my first interview wasn’t good enough. That’s where I started to wonder, where did I fall wrong. That’s where I started to have this dillema: going technical, or going administration. Yeah when I said administration, I mean all stuff except doing programming. Maybe the categorization fell short but you got the idea. I love to do programming apart from the lack of experiences and excersizes, I love to play with all the exploits. I just love those technical thingy. But what happened?

They demand a lot of values. I mean, real values. Either you know how to do it, or you don’t. Either you got it or you not. I started to think that my five years of studies are quite a waste. All that I know is just an introductory level. Okay fine I know what is TCP/IP, what is buffer overflow, what is an array and stuffs. But graduating after five years without any specific skills? Intrigued. All that I know is “what”, and the “howto” is not even sufficient for the employment.

On the other hand, I thought of a solution of going administration. You know, left the technical to those who know and let them be the slave. It ain’t what my heart want, but I know it pays the bills. There’s a lot of those “administration” things that I think I can do, but it will kill the curiosity for technical knowledge; the passion for being in control of the machine; being the one who is always depended.

And also, there’s a world called business. I’m not good at it at all, but maybe its worth a try too. But it all demands – yes you know it, money. Capital. Something that I don’t have, less to worry the experience or being wind up as a failure. Fine. I still need to work for somebody before started to own my own goddamn business.

Well that’s about the dillema I have. Values versus Money, Values versus Name, Values versus Passions, Passions versus Money, Money versus Values, and it all goes round and round in an indefinite loop of circle.

Makkkk… nak duitt…. nak idop… nak kawen… muahahaha!!

Well.. I just hope I do not end up like this picture below:


Huhu…

P/s: Currently I’m an unemployed bloke at home. Whoever have any jobs to offer me, preferably part time for this whole June, and permanent full time the day forward.. Please contact me at rearrange68@gmail.com

P/s 2: I’m really bored at home. However, I hope my graduation will be official a.s.a.p. hihu. Chuak gak dgn exam yg tah pape before this.

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>>> I was kidnapped!! <<<

May 9th, 2007 by [re-arrange] 11 comments »
This happened in the Worker’s Day public holiday. A day before (31st May 2007), I was home for this long waited holiday; as before that week, I’ve been struggling my ass off to catch up with all my works and assignment that’s due too close.

So what the heck. Let’s skipped the Monday classes (after all, two of my classes was cancelled) and went back home, I thought. I never thought that it would be a horrible experience for me the next day.

It was dark, I guess it was about 6 o’ clock in the morning. I was woke up by noises, which until today, I can’t figured out what. Child screaming maybe? At that time, I thought its my little brother and sister quarelling over something. To my suprise, I saw two black, shadowy figures – man and woman. Nothing much I can do, as I was not sober enough from my so early morning wake. All I can recalled, after seeing those two figures, I was blindfolded. I was gagged.

Darkness in my memory. All that I remembered was I being pushed over into some car, with my hands tied. I can’t scream – my mouth was mute. It just felt like a really long journey, which I dozed off and only being awaked by bumps and holes around the road. It was then that I know its already morning – the sunshine rays slipped from the outside of my blind.

Then I was dragged into a seat – a kind of stiffen sofa maybe. It has it back so hard that I can’t move it to lay aback. That was when I got my blindfold removed. Some women in red skirts or pants. Looks like stewardess. Its the moment that I found out that I was in an aeroplane. The stiffen sofa was actually a three row seats – I got my family besides me. They look ill, and pale. My little brother’s face is whiter than ghost. I just give a look of assurance to play along and reduced his worry.

I’ve never been in an aeroplane. This was my first time. And I didn’t expect it to turn out like this. I was always dreaming that my first experience boarding a plane would be with my love on a way to New Zealand or Las Vegas. My hands was sweating. My pulse was going crazy. I felt so cold – but yet sweats keep going down from my forehead.

The plane moved slowly at first, I thought that it was going into some coordinate or something. The engine roars like a deafening sound of a tiger – too close to my ear. I was praying that we would be alright and living for the next day. Then suddenly, the plane was gaining speed so fast that I felt like I’m out of air!!!

Oh My God!! I was having asphyxiation!

The plane starts to leave the Earth below. From the small windows, I can see that all things become tiny. The God View. It calms me down to see all the green turning small, and being replaced with sweet yellowish rays and clouds. However, my stomach didn’t feel too good; especially when the time the plane suddenly changing its placement from horizontal going into vertical position. I felt like having a turbulance soaring my stomach – I felt wanna puke, but the mouth bound stopped me from doing so.

Okay okay.. back to the storyline!

When the situation was calm again, I started to worry. It’s too many people, so I can’t recognize who were the kidnapper. And I wondered how they manage to get me into public plane without being asked any question.

Not only that, I worried of the location that they wanna take us. I worried about my fate. I didn’t even marry yet!!

Nevertheless, the flight comed to an end. I started feeling the turbulence when the plane’s position started to rewind. From the horizontal position into downward vertical position. Again, a tornado in my stomach violating. Rumbling into my adrenaline. Feeling weak. Feeling lost. Hoping, praying…

Then it happened. The impact of gravity. I was shocked that I almost swallowed the cloth that gagged my mouth. Scary stuff, really. Its not smooth as expected from the telly. Its suck.

Again it shows how many times that telly has been selling lies…

After a few minutes only that I regain my sober. Feeling a little bit dizzy, nausea, and sweats, I realized one fact for a moment – I’ve flied for the first time in my life!!!

And so it goes…

P/s: hehe.. actually I never been kidnapped. I just making things up to spice up the story. Actually, all that I want to tell is how I feel about being in a plane – for the first time in my life!! After 21 years! I’m flyingg~~

lol. Don’t get offended, my dear readers… I know its lame. tongue

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>>> Good Samaritans Being Punished <<<

April 19th, 2007 by [re-arrange] 6 comments »
I’m not a good politician or a vivid politician readers. For me, politic’s sucks. I never want to involve with it, especially about nation whatsoever. Ignorant I am, plus I don’t register for voting even though my dad keeps babbling me about responsibility and stuff.

But seeing good Samaritans being punished for saving a son is quite annoying. I mean, the kid has been home safe and sound, how in the hell all the conspiracy about kidnapping and begging arise? True, we should not trust anybody in this world due to its sickness, but people who did some nice effort keeping a life alive being punished is even sicker.

Yes people, I’m talking about Yin who has been lost for 14 days after being in Sogo with his family. I’m not saying I’m 100% on the Myanmar couple sides, but there’s no thanks from the family. That’s dumb and ignorant.

Talking about dumb and ignorant, I’d say that the Myanmar couple is another dumb. Not knowing a manhunt is going? For two weeks? That’s real dumb. But doing a good charity and being punished?

I was stunned by this case. Its just another prove that the world is getting sicker. Maybe I should get myself a gun in case I’m being kidnapped lol!

Ah talking bout gun, then its better to talk about another cases. Again, Samaritans being punished. Well not to say good, because it was random. Yerp, the rampage case in University of Virginia, where Korean students were shooting random targets in their hostels and classes.

I gotta admit, it looks cool. How about me being able to have some handgun, walk into Pocket D, and shoot all the people whom I hate for being so close-minded, walk out, and try to break from UTP without being catch? (Okay that sounds like infection of Prison Break.. tongue)

But true, machines, pistols, guns, are more powerful nowadays. You have it, you owned the world. Just see what happened to the Myanmar couples. If they have the pistols, would they be so dumb to return the kid just like that and being caught? And see what happened in Virginia (mispronounced it can lead to virginity.. lol tongue)

And to keep my thoughts to rest, let’s just conclude it as – machine are more ideal to be dealt with. People aren’t.

P/s: Why in the hell do I care about this people? Sheesh. You better read Genjo’s blog for this type of post. I’m not good at it, at all.

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