Ah. New year comes again. In a blink of an eye, time passes and again we left traces all over again. Here and there. Sadness, happiness, craziness, changes, idleness, clumsiness, challenges.

Most of the things that I’ve done in 2010 is more on getting me stabilized in this world. Slowly, I’ve changed. I’ve been aware on what I write. I’ve been aware on what my weakness are. I’ve been aware on what limit that I can hold myself with.

If you read my blog for this year postings, it’s more on movies, how-to guides, perks here and there either in blogosphere or Facebook or Twitter, and a little on life updates.

See, this year has been more on my own private time. And private stories. I refused to reveal so much here and there.

Have I been more mature? Meh. Don’t think so. In a way, I wanted to keep this childishness a bit to keep me interesting; even though time and responsibilities increased

Oh well, some of the highlights of life in 2010:

• Awa already passed away. Yeah, I was not updating about it on this blog. I was one of the most affected person by her death. It was very unexpected. And yeah, bits of grief here and there sometimes do hit me.
• And talking about blog, as I was expecting – the MultipleEyes died somewhere around Q4 2010. Most authors have their own blogs, and if your own blogs are not updated much — it doesn’t make sense to write on another, yeah? It’s destined to doom anyway. HAHA.
• Changed hosting for this blog and it turns out okay. No complaints whatsoever
• World Cup. German lost to Spain. DEMYUH Spain.
• But in a way, Malaysia wins over Indonesia in AFF Suzuki Cup. Yeah!!!
• Relationship? Going okay. We had our ups and downs. Sometimes we fight, sometimes we cuddle.
• Career? Change from IBM to HP. Did I regretted the decision? Nope. I won’t go to the extreme to say that HP is such a heaven with all colorful rainbows all around – but I’m more calm and contented as of now.

That’s it? I guess this year has been nothing much worth mentioning for me. Let’s see my past year resolution eh?

1. Love to the next level: Albeit a bit late and not in 2010 – I am getting engaged on New Year. So I’ll consider it accomplished.
2. Smoke less: A hit and miss. When I was in IBM, the stress was killing me that somehow I smoked quite a lot at times. But on average, I’ve been smoking less. A pack of 20 for 2 days. And fuck yeah government decision to stop the 14-packs cigarettes didn’t help either. But I’ll consider it accomplished as well
3. Achieve a new salary level: Yeah. I officially got 4k per month after taxes and everything. It comes with a price though. The price being not staying in IBM and venturing into a new company.
4. Write a fiction novel: Not started at all! All I’ve written was some short stories and then I went cold. I tried to read more now and with the Big Black Wolf sales – I tried to write something up but it just doesn’t materialize.
5. Scuba dive?: Pfft! No money. No vacation either for 2010.
6. Building fitness?: I started to go on jogs, but it didn’t come out as a routine. I stopped after… what, 2 weeks? 3 weeks? LOL.

See, I think I’ve been setting up my goals quite general for 2010 and that’s why most of it has become either hit and miss or simply forgotten along the way. Gotta admit that my focus was haywire in 2010. What about 2011?

Let’s set some clear goal, shall we? I know I can be realistic now, but I got to have more drive, motivation and inspiration. Will I be a more positive person in 2011? I do hope so

Love and Relationship:

I want to get married in 2011. I know I’ll be getting engaged on this New Year, so I wanted to get married by 2011. The planned date was around September – will surely write my journey of being someone’s fiancee. Do pray for me and her; and I do pray that we’ll be happily ever after

On this one, I know I’ve set a very clear goal.

Health and Fitness:

I want to give up smoking. It’s been a year already since I started to reduce my nicotine intake; it’s time to take it to the next level. I’m thinking on going cold turkey first and see if that works. Sure, I’ll be recording my journey on this blog as well. I’ll assess it every quarter – let’s see if I can make it for more than 6 months. That’s the clear goal.

I want to be gaining weight. I am 52kg and still a small figure. Wind blows and I can really fly. HAHA! :P So my clear targets are to gain up until 60kg, and maintain it on 60kg. I’m going to get consistent foods and some workouts. Hope these will works its magic, someway.

I want to be fit and have enough stamina. It’s no point if I gain 60kg but all the extra weights are building me a beer belly again. Not that I do not enjoy the beer belly, but I don’t appreciate getting huffed and out of breath when I went up the stairs. So that means going to hit the gym or do some exercise. Clear goals? Hmm. Let’s see…. okay I want to be able to run 10km on the treadmills. Sounds clear enough? :P

I want to have a consistent sleep timing. That requires discipline, which apparently I’ve been slacking and lacking like.. too many years already. I hope with proper foods and exercise, I get to have a better sleep and timing my life around the morning; in all its glory. A clear goal? Sleep before 12, and wakes up latest by 7.

In a way, all these items I mentioned in this section relates to one another. Let’s get into some disciplines and self control, shall we?

Career and Finance:

This would be hard. I am just starting out in HP and even though I do well in 2011, I know my salary increment will come in 2012. So no, there will be no salary increment achievement for this year – as far as I can foresee. But hey, if I got it somehow someway, I’ll be grateful!

Controlling my finance will also be a nuisance. Getting married will use a lot of money. Starting a new married life will also consumes money, so no – it will be too hard to set a realistic goals with x number of savings or whatnot.

Writing and Producing Valuables:

I always dream to have written books, and the dream is still there. But I’ve know that writing a book will takes a longer time and I might not have it as a realistic goal. So…

I want to write consistently in this blog. Giving the resolution sets above – I can now updates more on my personal life – like stop smoking, getting married, and building my fitness. That should be three posts already. Let’s set the goals at – 1 post per week, 4 post per month. Sounds good?

It maybe a low number. But better start small and be consistent about it. In the meantime, I might have ideas to write a real book, and went on with it. Anything more than 4 post per month would be such a good bonus.

So there. 6 resolutions set in three sections of life. I think I’ve been putting more emphasize on my health and fitness for 2011, and I really wanted to achieve it.

Hope this 2011 will be a good year. Amen to that.