No, no, no. Before you speculate whether I am confused about my gender.. PLEASE throw that idea away. I am still a man, a boy, and I still have my penis tucked between the area. Oh and its nothing to do about the internal gender confusion too. My internal is okay, and I am still proud to be a man. Goddammit, I am not gay and not thinking about being an hermaphrodite!
What I meant about loss and confuse is actually, about my virtual life. My life as a blogger here. My life to write. My life as [re-arrange]. Me, as you all perceived.
I once thought to drop this nick and never to use it again, back in the miserable day when I just breakup with the ex-girlfriend. I even try to change all my account to not use the nick anymore, just to find out that I can’t. Its moi. I’ve branded myself as [re-arrange] and there’s no turning back about that.
But what am I imposing here? What did I try to portray here? What did I brand here?
I think in this 4 years or more I am blogging, there’s more garbage than input being put here. More ramblings than knowledge. More shits than values. I didn’t share much on how-to. I didn’t give back to the community. I seed hatred more than love. In other word, I am not valuable..
And I started to think that this blog sucks. Big time. From the layout to the content. From the link to the ads.
(Ohh can I give that to all of you as the reason of less update, day by day? :P)
And I think I am tired. Tired and unmotivated. Ironically, this is not because of nothing to be blogged about. In fact, there’s too much of things that I wanted to blog about, which I thought would be of values.
But my own heart denies the values, even though before it’s being posted..
So, my dear readers; I am in serious need to have some other opinion.
- Should I just delete this blog and never blogged again?
- Or should I just delete this blog (which will give me a clean sheet) and started all over again?
- Or should I just leave it here, making it a memory to reminisce, and started a new one?
- Or should I just change the way how it looks like, and do a total makeover to this blog?
If you think that I should continue blogging, what is the things that you like most for me to contribute? What is the post that you like most?
- Love and relationship?
- Personal development – people psychology, observation, etc?
- Technical stuff – computers, softwares, gadgets?
- My own hectic, miserable life?
- Blog just about anything, without a theme?
This is a clash between themes, values, perceptiveness and interests. The more I think about this, the more I stuck. My heads can’t think clear.
P/s: Please leave your name when commenting. I will not accept any anonymity, this time.
There comes a time when you feel less than happy to update your blog.
Or too miserable. I had been through it again and againthough.
Huhu.
I don’t look as blog as source of how to . I like reading ramblings and such. It mirror the thoughts that we have day by day.
I won’t say what you should write about or how you gonna change it. It up to you really how you want to express yourself.
I am just a reader.
(this week I am lazy in updating my blog too. But that is just because stress from work)
The first 100 entries are the “calibration” for a blogger to mature. Whereby the 100 entries will shape up one’s style of language, way of delivering, maturity of content, and bit by bit towards the most preferred (read: specialized) subject to be written.
Only after those entries, we could be in ‘stability’, a firmer stand and our own way of writing (your own way of the ninja).
Perhaps before choosing all of your given options, you should try to flashback to you first 10 entries and compare it to the last 10 entries. See the difference and understand why they change so much. By then, perhaps you will then know what is the true purpose, your own purpose of blogging.
just blog about anything.. anything is fun n i love reading ur blog.. dont delete it ok?
the malas to update syndrome. sometimes, you have the best idea to write in your blog but the process to login, writing, correcting the grammar, sentence structure, and consider your readers feeling, it truly make you feel dull. and the obligation to respond to each and every one of the comments really tiring up.
truly, that’s how i feel sometimes. (or most of the time). forum is much easier for the reason that people have better respond and nothing personal and heck, you could choose to reply or not. blog is personal, mirror of yourself and heck very few responds.
hahahha. i love your blog, i love to read your rumbling. don’t you dare to delete it.
i appreciate random thoughts. it’s much original.
aku pernah (or still jugak?) mengalami sindrom ini! i’m confused on what to write, in fear of bore my readers (if any) too.
gile konflik!
aku rase mcm nak tulis semua bende kat dlm blog. tapi bile aku rase nnt ade org bace kang, i feel insecure.
god.
but it’s my blog anyway, so aku patut bole tulis ape-ape kan? if only i could think this way. huhu.
tapi aku hope ko tak delete la. take this blog as your life experience, yang mungkin ade sesetengah nye ko dah lupe atau pon bile ko bace balik nnt, you’ll laugh at yourself.
cuz i do feel that way to my blog ^_^
keep on writing! on anything!
eh.. cerita ko mcm cerita aku..
ble breakup, tension sgt, terus abandon blog lama, buat blog baru..
but my pace deteriorated jugak pastu. mood nak menulis hilang ntah ke mana. funny la, my blog can actually function as my emotional gauge. kalo pace ok, bahasa ok, maksudnya otak aku pun ok.. hu hu.. but of cos, i’m suppose to be commenting on ur blog, not mine.. just share2 cerita aje..
and i guess i agree with everybody else.. keep writing about anything!
it doesn’t matter wether your blog can contribute to the society or wateva.. tulis je apa2, yg pentingnya tak sakit otak sbb terpaksa simpan thoughts tu sorang..
u dont actually have to hv a specific purpose.. kalo u stick to 1 theme, nanti u jugak rasa boring.. mcm life jugak, kenkdg kita rasa nak buat A, alih2 lepas 2minggu, terus rasa mcm nak buat B… caca merba kan aje.. lagi best=)
dila: well, that is an opinion of writing blogs as personal journal to express meself, aight? ok..
Genjo: thanks for the insight. that’s a good way to be a ninja.
hazel:
i’ll tell the verdict later.
mangi: heck, i dont even have enough time anymore to do a blog, let alone forum.
i’ll let the GV and K5 be the only forum I get active in memory. haha.
again, the verdict will be later.
chunna:
i’ll keep on writing. I just can’t stop.
nett: it’s not about the breakup anyway. but yeah.. sometimes i’m afraid of the deteriorating pace anyway. but hmm..
thanks anyway for all the comments. i will come up with the verdict on 100th post.
adek, aku rase kan.. baek delete je, dari menyemak..
hehehe.. kidding bro, u shud continue it..
at least when am bored, i can still read ur blog
This is my first ever comment in your blog. I always read your blog but have nothing to comment. But this time, I wanna say something. Heheh.
No! Don’t stop blogging. Keep up blogging about anything u want. Doesn’t matter u don’t have a theme for ur blog. I also don’t have a specific theme for my blog. But one of the reasons I blog is to express my own feelings. Sometimes I ‘lepas geram’ at my blog. LOL
Keep on posting. Share whatever u want. Because sharing is caring! Heheheh.
ko jgn delete blog ni. sbb, nnt bila ko dah tua, ko bace balik post lame2, mesti ko tersenyum balik. aku cadangkan ko start dgn blog baru, so semangat pon haruslah baru. (lagipun aku agak muak gak la tgk layout ijau ko nih). drpd tuka layout, baik buat baru je terosss.
sekian.
- ni jamie, mls nk login =p
- tuka layout, x yah buat blog baru
- tulis bila rasa nk tulis. x yah rasa pressure ngn org2 yg ramai tunggu ko updet blog. sbb..
- biler ko btul2 rasa nk updet, de mood nk menulis, baru best nk baca. writing pun must come from the heart gak =)
- x yh ade theme pape =) rasa nk tulis pasal love ke..work ke..blasah aje. x mo la blog ko ni tiber2 ade specific theme plak. mcm skrg ni ok la..slalu tuka2.
- once again, tuka layout. bg segar bugar riang ceria sket..hehe.
- sekian
itek: haha, don’t dare me lil sis.
YeOp: thanks for reading my posts. and thanks for the encouragement. i will keep on blogging. oh when the mood strikes obviously
ella: hmm.. baeklah. yeah, aku da muak gk dgn layout nih, but editting xml is such a burden. dem. css pn tak lepas, nk edit xml mmg saket ati gk lah.
jamie: wargh! layout ku tak penah ceria lol.
bak kata jep pn, sinister place la kan haha.
haa.. that’s not me who dare you, its my duplicate!
hehehe..
what if i say, org malam tu mmg btol aku, tapi aku tanak ngaku? LOL
wakaka oih, xyah riso ape yg ko nk tulis, hentam sajalah. if u feel ur layout suck big time, gi ciplak free theme hehe (aku tau ko mls nk wat theme sendiri.
ur blog is ur blog, tulis ar ape2 yg ko rs nk tulis, xmo tulis pnjg tulis pendek2. kalo dh mls sgt snap2 pics jer, a picture can hv thousands meaning.
jep: haha nk ciplak free theme tu susah tuh! theme sume (yg flexible width) masih dlm css. tiada lg yg xml.
nk change blk to css, amatlah malas. argh fak!
ade aku tuka wordpress lak kang.. tp wordpress pn tak byk default yg lawa. cis.
itek: whatever la itek oi.
are u having a writer block syndrome..? In any case Just write anything but make it something that you feel proud of writing it.
Vote for technicalality issues!!. Kalo tulis pasal kete okay gak