Archive for May, 2008

>>> Tag Game… again <<<

May 24th, 2008
Well, Jannah tag me again. Hoping this could help me cool myself down, no? Duh!

I think I’ve played this before.. but.. whatever.

The Rules :
1. Each blogger must post these rules first.
2. Each blogger starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.
3. Bloggers that are tagged need to write on their own blog about their eight things and post these rules. At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.
4. Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’ve been tagged, and to read your blog.

Fact #1: Bathe
[re-arrange] is well known to be someone who takes time to bath. Having said this, he takes 30 minutes to one hour to properly bath. Ironically, lately he bathe one time per day only.

Well, I don’t sweat in the office. So?

Fact #2: Eating
[re-arrange] is also well known as someone who eats a lot. Don’t be surprised if he order two nasik lemak in Maveles at night, or an ice-cream toast as his appetizers while having another main dish and dessert in Old Town Cafe. He doesn’t care if he spent his fortune for his gluttony.

However, ironically, he’s been skipping lunch a lot lately. Hence, the loss of the belly (-_-”winking.

Fact #3: Addiction
[re-arrange] is also well known as “The Chimney” because he smokes a lot. That’s his primary addiction that he is yet to overcome. Other than that, he also addicted to loud musics. He will play his mp3 playlist everyday, blaring into his earshot whenever he walks into the office.

Fact #4: Sleep Disorder
[re-arrange] is also well known as someone who doesn’t sleep at night. He simply can’t. He had just tried to wake up early in the morning in the past two days and it gives him a 180 degree of mood swings.

It’s not insomnia. It’s just DSPD (Delayed Sleep Phase Disorder).

Fact #5: Siblings
[re-arrange] is the first in the family, and he got a twin little sister and brother. No, it’s not a pair of twin, it’s one. A twin, but a boy and a girl.

The total siblings that he has? 8. Alive? 6. He lost two of his sisters in childhood, leaving only one girl from the twin as the only female siblings that he has.

Fact #6: Numbers
[re-arrange] love the number 6, 8, and 68. He hates number 7. Why? The effect of James Bond from the childhood.

Fact #7: Hair
[re-arrange] loves his long hair. He planned to have it rebond later. Or might be colouring it dark blue-black? LOL.

He just afraid that his parent’s gonna kill him.

Fact #8: When it comes to girls..
[re-arrange] is a sucker for fair girls. Plus that with a unique charm – say, friendly, or sparkling eyes, he’ll fall for it. Even though his history always thought that the white outside means dark inside.

If you got fair complexion, he might like you physically. LOL.

Choose the next 8?
1) Mangi
2) Chunna
3) Mia
4) Enol
5) Sue
6) Jane
7) Arfa
8) Hmmm…. Effi? LOL.

Well, if you did it previously, no worries. If you don’t want to do it, no worries too. But if you do or did it, leave me a comment with the links.

P/s: Wonder how to do trackback with blogspot. Hmmm….

>>> Unstable Emotion <<<

May 22nd, 2008
I think I know what you think. You think that this is another post continuing the rant about the new girl I met previously, huh?

Sorry dude / dudettes. It’s not. This unstable emotion is not that kind of emotion. In fact, it’s not even the kind of emotion that I like. *sigh*

I think the image below should explain how I feel right now…

Depression and uncontrollable amount of anger.

Anyway, talking about the last post, its actually nothing. It’s actually the way I have been attracted to a girl that I’ve met previously. But, she’s already in a relationship, so it’s not my way at all to disturb somebody who’s not available. It’s just that, I like the feeling of infatuation that I haven’t been able to feel for quite a long time. happy

So, close that story. In fact, I don’t even started anything LOL. Loser.

Back to the topic..

I am feeling fucked up today. I know that I suck at working in the morning, but due to the Data Warehouse training, I got to wake up early in the morning to attend that. Little that I know, my emotion swings in totally a different angle.

I’m feeling moody like a girl having her period. Sounds so fucking sissy, and so fucking sensitive. I get mad at nothing, and I get mad at small things. I am fucked up at the moment.

Plus that with a late dinner with Snub and the others at Maveles, going back at 5, and waking up in the morning feeling real dizzy and disoriented. Add that with the talk of relationships in previous night that earthen up all the old stories and previous nightmares, it just like pouring salts in the injuries.

My heads were thinking about things that had past.. again.. shit.

And I wonder how did I managed to stay sane back in UTP back when my life still needed me to go to class in the morning?? Or is it a fact that my life is changing? Is it a fact that working environment really stressed you out?

(even though its a fact that I didn’t go to morning classes that much, but I still did go for it :P)

Now I am questioning myself again; is this the life that I want to lead till I’m dead or retired? *sigh*

Maybe I need to meet my friends more frequent to get track back in my life. Can anybody give me a quick course of anger management, my fellow dudes/dudettes?

I am going lunatic. Even my little sister’s stupid playlist doesn’t help. That’s already a weird thing for me to do; to tune into my little sister’s playlist.

Weird.

P/s: Oh you wanted to know what the playlist? Aizat AF5 – Hanya Kau Yang Mampu, Matta – Ketahuan, Alif Aziz – Sayang Sayang, and Mulan Jameela – Makhluk Tuhan Paling Sexy.

Weird isn’t it? Since when that I can tune to Malay Pop? (-_0″winking

>>> Letting it off my chest <<<

May 18th, 2008

Today, I suddenly smiled when I read a quote from Henry Bromell in his Northern Exposure, The Big Kiss, dated 1990:

Sometimes when you look back on a situation, you realize it wasn’t all you thought it was. A beautiful girl walked into your life. You fell in love. Or did you? Maybe it was only a childish infatuation, or maybe just a brief moment of vanity…

Ladies and gentlemen, the itisjan03 just finished our BBQ activities at Mat’s house. It’s good to be together again. It’s good to let myself loose again. It’s good to be able to laugh heartily again. It has been a while since I got to laugh and smiling and sharing updates with my dear itisjan03.

Even though the time limits me to open up just for a little, but it was satisfying. Having been quite uptight with routines and works, it was also an opportunity for me to not be a robot again. To be happy again.

Not to say that I am not happy with my current life.. but.. today did flash some additional colours to it…

This might not be realized by many people, in fact; I can safely assume that nobody noticed anything different with me. Well, I am not blaming anybody – having been in a prison made by myself, it must been hard for me to express myself as bold as before.

Or maybe its too early? Maybe I was just afraid? Maybe it was the consequences of the past? Or maybe I am just a chicken now?

Sigh. It’s been a while since I got to feel this kind of vanity, but I got to admit, the feeling was marvelous. It’s only the glimpse of her under the evening sun, but, it was heaven..

Or maybe the sun played its trick on my eyes?

Gah. I need to let this out of my chest. So here goes..

Ku tahu ku belum bersedia lagi,
Tak ku bersolek membawa diri,

Tapi ku tersentak melihat kuasa Illahi,

Sungguh! Terasa sempurna ini hari..

Pandai sungguh diri dibawa,
Tidak menghukum, berfikiran terbuka,
Ringan mulut beramah mesra,

Menarik caramu, aku tergoda!

Terkancing mulutku tertunduk pandanganku,
Rendah rasa, malu dan kelu,

Di celah gelak hebat gegar tawaku,
Tercuit hati di lirik mataku..

Bukan ku gila sampai tak lalu makan nasi,
Bukan itu yang ku mahukan sebagai impresi,
Tapi tak ku nafi bila ku sendiri,
Tersenyum meleret cuba mengingati..

Ku sedar ini cuma fantasi,
Yang telah terlalu lama tak ku rasai,
Walau hanya sekelumit ruang yg terisi,
Tetap ku abadikan di dalam memori..

Terima kasih sahaja yang mampu ku ucapkan,
Hidupku hari ini telah sedikit kau warnakan,

Tidak ku mengharap ku jumpa lagi di masa hadapan,

Ku faham ini hanya tarikan luaran..

And I played this song again and again for today….

I let my guard down for you,
And in time you will too..

And if you don’t mind, can you tell me all your hopes and fears,
And everything that you believe in,
Would you make a difference in the world?
I’d love for you to take me to a deeper conversation,
Only you can make me..


Yuna – Deeper Conversation

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Oh I don’t know why.. but I keep on smiling for today..

Wicked.

P/s: Enol, sorry but I just got to answer your “question” previously with a childish laugh.. ;p