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>>> Reminiscence of 2007, Resolutions of 2008 <<<

December 31st, 2007

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Theme song for end of year 2007

A new year post. Let’s start it with something heavy. Please read this post by Genjo to get some facts into your dimwit head, and melt the facts into your brain so that your mind can keep rolling.

Trivial facts: By 31 Dec 2007 – my blog got 77 posts. Shitty #7.

Okay, first thing first – old;">Review of last year resolution. I know I’ve done bad, but let’s see some statistical number. Btw, check this link for my last year resolution.

1) Financial condition.

Duh! A big no-no for me. I’ve spent recklessly and my financial condition is not in a better situation. Ain’t that worst though, because I’ve paid the debt and stuff, also I invest in life insurance. But still, as calculated previously, the money ain’t enough.

And the target by the end of the year is not achieved as well. I am working but I made RM2300 and not RM2500 as targeted. I’ve settled the debts, but I ain’t got no money to buy a car.

old;font-style:italic;">Score: 0

2) Academic achievement.

This is the thing that I can be proud of. I graduated with 3.13 CGPA, with Digital Electronics minor (completed without a flaw, yeay!). Even though I didn’t manage to get Dean List (due to the facts of the D.E minor ain’t easy), but I am still proud of what I had achieved.

Not only that, the target by the end of the year is also achieved with bonus. I targeted to own old;">a professional certificate, but I got two! Yes, I am a “IBM Certified Database Associate” as well as “IBM Certified Service-Oriented Architecture (SOA) Associate”.

So, if this ain’t a fullmark, at least I believe I deserve an A for 90% aggregates.

old;font-style:italic;">Score: 0 + 1.

3) Overall Life (misc. things).

This involved a lot of things as written before. I didn’t manage to get all of it, and pretty much I don’t get many too. The religion is still deteriorating as well as the health.

Let’s see about the target: I don’t have obsession for Magic anymore (great!), I still don’t exercise regularly and constantly (T_T), I smoke less than 20, now I got 14 for the average 2 days (goddamn great!), I still not fully disciplined with the religious (duh!), I ain’t got a reason to prepare for at least engagement whatsoever (duh! I break up, remember?), and I just cannot be a smart-ass looking guy (I just love my long hair too much! big grin)

So, bad marks.

old;font-style:italic;">Score: 0 + 1 + 0.5

old;font-style:italic;">Total Score: 1.5 / 3 = 50% = C+ kut?

Moving on, should I do a old;">Reminiscence of 2007? *sigh* Ok fyne! big grin

The Good Things in 2007
  • Achieved two IBM Certification.
  • Career wise; going great. Learn a lot, and know a lot too.
  • 2007 taught me about “what I am”. I realize I am a manipulator, a winner, a daredevil, and still, the best thinker.
  • No more “ghost” haunting.
  • New phones, new rims, overhauled ride.
  • Graduated in time. With pride and joy too.

The Shitty Things in 2007

  • Lost – my beloved grandma, my girlfriend, even my cute belly.
  • Being bitter than ever.
  • Three skeletons in the closet. At least I exposed one to some people.
  • Involved in an accident.
  • My parents decision to settle down in KL and sold the home in Muar. I hate that, forever.
  • Completing vices. Even though it feels good, its not the best thing to be proud off.

Ok done. Actually, I hate to reminisce things that happened in 2007, because as far as I am concern with, the shitty things that happened gives more impact to my life rather than all the good things that happened.

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What goes around.. comes around..

Next, old;">Resolution of 2008. Let me get into the zones and start thinking first..

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Ok.. here goes.

1) Career and financial wise.

I want to improve more in my career. I want to be a permanent staff, gain a lot more knowledge, being respectable, gain a higher “moolah“, and at the same time, being more secure in the career and financial.

Target by mid year: Be a permanent staff in IBM. I got to admit, if I don’t get it, I rather be looking other work. I need the security.

Target by end of year: Security completely setup. This means, I got some investment and savings (target – at least RM2400), I got some money to enjoy, and also, I am available for credit assistance in term of housing loan – maybe I can get the dream house by next year. Also, it means that I am not burned out for nothing. I need to gain as much as what I give.

2) Hobbies and Interests

Once upon a time, I had hobbies such as Gundam and Magic, however, I lost interest over time. So now, in working world, I consider myself as one without hobby, thus, life’s kinda dull. I am considering to learn music formally, as it was my hobby too once upon a time, but at that time I only learn guitar by myself. Also, I need to persevere my everlasting hobby – reading.

Target by end of year: Be a music literate, as well as being able to play an additional instrument. Will consider piano and guitar improvement. And also, I want to read at least 6 different novels.

3) Health – Physical, Emotional, and Psychological

I am not sure how to measure and estimate this. This is one hard area for me to work on. Physically, I am not constant to have exercise. Emotionally, I am not constant in doing the deeds for my religion too. And psychologically, I am a freak – bitter and sarcastic. For this, I will need to improve in all three areas, but I won’t set a target for this, because I am not sure how to measure it. Drop your ideas in the comments.

So, that’s it. Happy New Year all! I had a blast celebration yesterday, so I know this year would be a happy and prosper year for me. May this year bring happiness and prosperity to all of us too! big grin

>>> Daemon – Desra <<<

December 18th, 2007

I was bored to death so I bloghopping as usual. Stumbled into Dila’s blog and found out about the daemon blogthing based on The Golden Compass. I haven’t seen it yet btw..

So, the thing about this blogthing is, you can assess me and see if my daemon is suitable. It got 12 days before it settles into the final form, so in that time, feel free to evaluate me. And btw, if you want to click “Next”, the button is on right lower corner and might be a little bit hidden.

My daemon started as a Tiger named Desra. Cool! If you want to evaluate me and the sheet below is quite hard for you to see.. then please use this link

If you want to try for your own Daemon, click the link above and browse to Daemon section. Can’t post the link though because its a Flash – based web. Btw, check out this link too!

History of my Daemon: Tiger > Osprey > ??? > ???

Well.. here goes my assessment sheet tongue

>>> I officially hate number 7… <<<

December 10th, 2007
Lately I haven’t been feeling very well. Truth been told, I’m tired..

You know.. I have my favourite numbers. Those who knows me well know its not seven. Those who knows me well know its before and after it. Those who knows me well knows the story behind it, and know how much I hate number seven up to the extent of asking this question:

” Why oh why there has to be a number in between my favourites… “

Somehow the years also was in my side. 1986 – I supposed to have a baby sister. 1987 – we lost her to God. 1988 – We got a replacement. 1996 – The economy is so well we live like kings and queens. 1997 – The worst economy downturn. 1998 – The best things ever happened in my family…

2006? All good things happened – internship, new love, new spirit. 2007? Everything come to an end – works not equal to intern, love shattered, the dark spirit returned, another skeleton in the closet. I am waiting to embrace 2008..

CSI-wise? Season 6 is the best season. Season 7 – hanging with Sara been under a car, left in the desert. Season 8? Great emotions and intellectual.. up until…

Episode 7 – Sara leaves CSI???????

What a curse number 7.

Sometimes I am superstitious towards these littlest unexplained things that looks coincidental. It gives me some neurological hinges that shakes the intellect values I’ve been embracing everytime..

You know I love you. I feel I loved you forever..

I am still mourning over the loss of my greatest favourite tv-series to one intellectually-attractive CSI – Sara Sidle. The only tv-series that has been successfully makes me attached and followed it up until 8 season, with about 164 episodes. The only tv-series that I can watch with full attention without flinching even a bit. The only tv-series that I can watch while savouring my meals better, even though with goriest scenes…
Gil,

You know I love you. I feel I’ve loved you forever.

Lately I haven’t been feeling very well. Truth be told, I’m tired. Out in the desert, under that car that night, I realized something and I haven’t been able to shake it.

Since my father died, I spent almost my entire life with ghosts. We’ve been like close friends and out there in the desert, it occurred to me, that it was time for me to bury them. I can’t do that here.

I’m so sorry.

No matter how hard I try to fight it off, I’m left with a feeling that, I have to go. I have no idea where I’m going, but I know I have to do this. If I don’t, I’m afraid I’ll self-destruct, and worse, you’ll be there to see it happen. Be safe.

Know that I tried very hard to stay. Know that you are my one and only. I will miss you with every beat of my heart. Our life together was the only home I’ve ever really had. I wouldn’t trade it for anything.

I love you…I always will.

Goodbye…

I officially hate #7 for the rest of my entire life. Maybe I’m going to change my cell number too as to not including any 7.

T_T