Today I went to KL just to spend time with my baby dear. As for now, I’d said everything went smooth. Thank god to all the experiences and maturity thoughts from both of us, we don’t have much problems although we have differences. I’m happy to see her, and we enjoyed our time together.

However, I do not know what the fucking hell has possessed me this night. I just can’t sleep when I think about this. Hmm..

I discovered “Arm” messages. I don’t mind when he’s going out with my baby, as long as he doesn’t tried anything funny. But, I discovered the “childish” part of him. He still can’t let go of my baby?? WTF is that? I’ve give much freedom to my honey. I do not even questioned when he’s going out with her. In fact I do not mind about it at all. But to say that he still miss her?? WTF??

and its not only in one message?? again.. WTF???

and to say that he regrets to left my baby previously, and now, intented to want her back? WTF IS THAT FUCKING SHIT????

And now, I keep on imagining things. I keep on imagining that I shoot him in the mouth. And I stuck a knife into his fucking ass. And I cut his throat. And I burned him with his car, after i crash the car at a tree, to make it to look like an accident. Ah, the car is also, in pieces, smashed down. The body will no longer able to be recognized. He’ll disappear with all his fucking stupid memory and lusts. And.. disappear forever, with my problem… He’ll no longer be a threat. Hell’s rotten with him.

I do not want to stop his friendship with my dear. I don’t mind if my baby befriend with him. But if this attitude keep going on.. I guess the images on my mind will become real.

I trust my baby. I just don’t trust the devil inside them. And them, refers to him too. And I hope he can read this somehow.

Now tell me readers, is killing a rational thing to do?

*sigh*

-criminal’s mind mode: off-