Again I’m in the verge of thinking. Yeah the same old me, cannot be left alone. If not, I’ll start thinking all the weird thing.
Today I think about what I like or interested and how my future fortune will be if it revolves around my interest. Even though in this weekend and its previous, it seems like love has been the major topic revolving around me (AGAIN), I don’t have any mood to write about it over and over. Enough with the dream girl, the fact that I’m still single and the president of loosang club (club loser+gersang..haha) will not be changing in a matter of second, no matter how hard I try to think or justify about it. :p
When I reviewed myself, there are 3 interests that I cannot afford to let go no matter how long I left it undone. One, it will be computers. Understandable enough as long as I’m in this industry. Even though I’m neither as creative as jep or sean in multimedia, nor as updated and knowledgeable in hardwares, OS or networks, I do see myself as enthusiast in software and hacking. I can easily understand programming, no matter what languages it is (even though my skills in developing no-error-prone codes without compiler is deteriorating). I’m interested in software development and eager to learn something new each and everyday. And yet to come, I try to learn linux and J2EE, plus the mobile, wireless, nano, and encryption technology.
This is an area where my fortune really lies. Be as blurry as it was in our freshmen year, now I’m quite directed and know where the hell am I going. My internship at IBM has lead me somewhere. With a little help from the internet, the God of Virtual world, I’d say, I’ll pursue my knowledge in J2EE and Linux. Maybe I’m going to be a Java Developer, specifically in J2EE. Linux? As it is open source, I can’t say that there are much job opportunities for it. Nevertheless, it still a requirement, with the hope that someday, Linux will emerged as the main OS in the world (Anti the Microsoft monopoly!!). So it is important to know Linux as second platform. At least, even though I know nothing about AIX or Solaris or Mac OS, it will be easy to learn them all in a blink of an eye if I have a strong knowledge in Linux, coz the basic of other OS (except Windows, which is console-based technologies) is UNIX, the root of Linux.
Yeah I’m a geek in the outer of my heart. I’m not a n00b, not yet a l33t :p
Second, mysteries and detectiveness. This is the second interest that I have. The CSI, Conan, Numb3rs, Detective Q. The keen eye and the sharp mind. Even though I’m not thorough enough like Grissom or sharp mind enough like the new girl in CSI NY (I forgot her name. A new cast in the show), I love the enthusiasm to discover the truth, and the power that science can bring. I was a biology student at high schools, so no wonder I cannot get bored watching the same case in CSI, no matter how many times it’s repeated.
So how can I imply this in the future life, the life to get a money? I’m now deep in this virtual world, where bits and bytes are my quixoticy (I love this word, reminds me our homeroom name back in mjsc jasin). So, there are no CSIs in Malaysia, as far as I know. (If there are, it will be so lame, just go and watch Tragedi every Tuesday/Wednesday(forget) in TV3.) Well at least if I get to work in a lab like that, maybe in US or somewhere, I’d like to be the CIO (whoaa!!) or at least, system admin for the computers there *wink2*.
Or maybe I’d like to be Archie, the IT proficient in CSI Las Vegas? Then I need to learn encryption/decryption, of textfiles, images, videos and sounds. hahaha. now it sound like a dream, but still a logic dream that can be motivating.
Third, literature. The healing for heart, or should I say, the real inner heart of mine? I know somewhere deep in my heart, there are the soft spot that I’ve hide it for a long time. Blame the dark experiences of love. hahahaha. Well, the arts and literatures do interest me. That’s why I love reading, be it such a garbage phrase of words or a “high-quality-sometimes-it-hard-to-understand” masterpieces.
So, applying literature as a living. I’m not a writer, never an artist. I can write gibberish, and I can paint abstract (just throw the tin of paints at the sheets), and I can play power-chord for guitars. hahaha. so much of arts and literature. I’m a noob in this area. The only thing I can do for arts and literature is envying each and every pieces.
But I think this can be a diversion, let say, if somehow I cannot get a proper living with the technologies? Oh life is a continuos learning, no matter how hard you hate it. Maybe I need to be serious about it and learn it all over again. No sweat. Maybe.
Dreams can motivates you, depends on how logic can it be to be turned into reality. Even though I rarely have dreams in my sleep, I love to think and turn it into logical dreams. The one that I can work on.
Dream on people! Behold, mortal! Let the imagination cherish you!.
P/s: Ina was pm’ing me this evening. She also said she’s now single. Hahaha!!! What the fuck. All love crisis revolving around me this weekend? Oh well..I don’t give much damn about it! Or do I?
The truth, it did shaking me. haha. But I don’t have comitment, yet.
